Getting what I DESERVE

I have done something that I am really proud of myself for. I said NO to something/someone that I knew was not the best for me. I could have probably held out, and made it "good enough", but I think I subconsciously have sacrificed myself over the years to accept things that were not necessarily the best for me, and my thought process was that it's okay - I'll put up with it because I can handle it.

Somewhere inside I think I was punishing myself for mistakes I have made in the past, and not giving myself the benefit of forgiveness and a clean slate. I have somehow thought I wasn't worthy or deserving of the absolute best, so something "close enough" would suffice.

Another part of that was that I was too lazy and unmotivated to go after the BEST. But not anymore. There comes a time in every person's life that you have to realize your own worth, and I think this is mine.

I am still struggling with this in some areas, but I think I am getting there.

I deserve nothing BUT the BEST. I AM WORTH IT. And on one hand, I need to exercise enough patience to wait for it. On the other, I need to emit enough confidence to know how to recognize it when I see it.

Despite my shortcomings, I am VERY BLESSED. And it's time I start walking in that light, rather than sulk in the dark.

I won't be afraid anymore.

GO ME!